Going grocery shopping without you is terrible
How could I have been so fucking stupid to lose the only thing in my fucking life that I cared about. A little fucking effort was all it would take. What the fuck was I thinking?
I want to be mad but I can’t be. This is all my fault and I had chances and I saw it coming.
If you want to plan something, you have to actually plan it. I’ve never planned anything in my life. I get through school on procrastination and luck. Hearing a professor say that I need to do more planning is easy to laugh off but when it comes from someone you love, you have to take it to heart or understand that if you don’t make a change she won’t be there to notice if you did or not. Start planning. Make changes. Get out. This is another wake up call in a long line of chances she’s given me and all I want is to prove that I can actually be the man she deserves.